30 day song challenge: day 4

Yep, I am back with day four of the 30 day song challenge! Wow, so far I actually have been doing well at posting these on the right days.. well, so far anyways. I'm not sure how next week is gonna go post-wise because I have academic week, which means homework and all that fun stuff. Anyways, here is the song I chose for day 4: a song that makes me sad.

Day 4: a song that makes me sad
Honestly, not only this song makes me sad but it brings me so much pain listening to it. I do like the song and I really like the band but so many negative feelings get sucked into my head. When I am listening to the song that comes before the song on my Ipod, I always have to switch songs or just listen to another artist because just hearing it hurts so badly, I can't even listen to this song while I am typing this. The song is "Don't Wake Me" by Skillet and I connected so well with that song when my second boyfriend broke my heart and left me there alone with my future boyfriends having to deal with the problems. Although I am way over him and very happy with my current relationship, the song still brings me bad memories to this day, although he broke up with me October 11th 2010. This song shows exactly how I felt after he basically smashed my heart on the ground and smashed it into a million tiny pieces. I still am not completely healed because of the issues with the past relationship (he asked me out because I was willing, his sex drive was higher than the average teenager and I tried so hard to please him even though I knew I could never fully please him because I wasn't (am still not) ready for sex, and he also questioned whether or not he would be faithful to me AND decided to randomly come up occasionally out of the blue and tell me he STILL misses me), which really has taken a toll on my self esteem. I honestly wish I could forget him and the damage he's done but if I had a time machine, I wouldn't eliminate our past relationship because I believe things happen for a reason and without him, I most likely wouldn't be with Kyle. I was heartbroken and lost without him but although I am now completely over him, I still can't listen to this song because of all the pain.

Well, that's it for day 4 of the 30 day song challenge. As you guys could tell, this song hits me in a very personal spot and it hurts so much, i refuse to listen to it no matter how much I like Skillet. So, enough with day 4 and you guys will have to see what my song choice for day 5, a song that reminds you of someone but until then, ciao for now and stay tuned until tomorrow!