Valentines day: my opinion

Valentines day is a stupid holiday and this is coming from a girl in a relationship.

Those who are single: Quit complaining about how lonely you are going to be on Valentines day. No one cares so just shut up. No wonder why you aren’t in a relationship to begin with. Those who are in relationships: It should be no different than any day you guys are together and besides, you should treat your other the best you can everyday instead of waiting until one day in order to treat them special.

Valentines day: whether you like or not, it is a holiday made by the greeting card company because they were running out of ideas.

Disclaimer: Although Valentines day is meaningless, I am still celebrating it with my boyfriend... although it is just like any other day with him anyways. 

2012 so far..

Wow, 2012 has been crazy! From schoolwork, homework, and after school activities to friendships, relationships, and stuff in between.

Sorry I haven't been posting in a while, I have been so busy but all in all, 2012 has been decent so far. Sure, there are a few obstacles but that's life and I have been able to move on from all of it. I have been getting really good grades and so far in this term, I only missed one homework assignment, which is a record since I used to never pass in homework. Although school can be a trouble, I have been managing to get through and I have no interest in stopping my studies. I have also been in drama, so I've been staying after school a lot more (well, except for last week because I had a really bad cold). I also have yet to order my class ring, which is exciting because in my old school, students would have to wait until junior year in order to get class rings but in my school, sophomores get to order class rings! I do wish they were less expensive but here is the basis on what I want:

Although it is about $140... but my mom is going to let me get it, which is good... I just need to find out my ring size. Good thing the people from the ring company are coming to my school on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. Personally, I chose this because 1. it is very pretty and 2. I don't want a chunky, bulky ring that would most likely spend a long, long  time in a drawer somewhere. 

Oh, and I painted a door in shop... so here it is. 

yes, I am very random...

On a non school related note, my current relationship keeps getting better and better, which has been making me the happiest girl alive. I know I tend to not post such mushy gushy stuff but I feel as if I am dreaming and I still can't believe this is happening.  And, in honor of Valentines day coming up, here is a picture of how cute we are :3

  haha we look sorta emo.. or scene.. whatever :p Oh, and speaking of Valentines day, as much as I believe how pointless the holiday is because it is no different than any other day with your significant other only with presents, hearts, and crap like that , I am actually very excited. It will be my second valentines day taken and I know for sure that it will be so much better than last year.

Other than that, I have been reconnecting with my old friends and continuing to blossom my relationship with my newer friends as well as making new ones as well. Instead of spending weekends alone, a lot of times, I am out with friends and I have been a lot more social because I spent years not knowing who my true friends are and now that I finally know who really has my back, I have been very happy.. although sometimes I worry about losing them.

As for family life, I have been sort of isolating myself in my room for some peace and quiet in my busy life so I haven't really been connecting a lot with my family. Sometimes, I prefer my solitude instead of the craziness of 5 other people in the household. I have had issues with my family in the past so there is still a bit of negativity towards them but all in all, things have been alright. Probably my closest family member is my mom because she and I are very similar and I tend to go to her when I need someone to talk to. I do love my family but like in every other household, my parents and my siblings do get on my nerves but no matter what, they are family.

Other than that, I don't have much to look forward other than the obvious (vacation, holidays, month-averseries with my boyfriend, etc.) so that's what's been up. I hope everyone is having a good start to the year and I will try to post more.
With love,
Savanna

2011 wrap up

For me, 2011 was overall an eventful and wonderful year for me... probably the best year I have ever had in my entire life. 2011 was a fresh start for me: new hair, new school, new friends, new boyfriend... pretty much a new life. So many things have changed mostly for the better. Sure, there were some rough spots, but in all, I loved 2011!

In 2011 (In no order)

• I saw one of my favorite singers, Emilie Autumn on tour
• I received my first valentines gift
• I became more of an anime fan
• I started getting more into cosplay
• I went to Anime Boston
• I Went out of state (Canada)
• I changed my hair
• I experienced major power outages
•  I transferred schools
• I got tickets and VIP passes to the American Idols live! tour 2011. I met most of the contestants, which was really awesome, but I didn't get to meet my favorite: James Durbin. Although I was bummed about that, he interacted with me onstage and grabbed my hand! It was definitely one of the most exciting days of my life!
• I met some of the most amazing people who I will most likely be friends with for a lifetime
• I discovered what it means to have true friends
• I haven't been hiding my emotions as much
• I turned 16 and my parents threw a surprise party
• I reconnected with old friends
• I have built strong bonds with so many people
• I found out what it was like to feel alone in a relationship
• I went through my first breakup where I was the "dumper" and not the "dumpie"... it was really tough but I honestly don't regret it.
• I started dating and fell in love with the guy of my dreams <3 
• I went to my first homecoming dance
• I saw my favorite band, Evanescence live and I got to experience seeing my hero, Amy Lee live! it was beyond amazing
• I had a white Halloween 
• I had a green Christmas 
• I spent New Years Eve with my boyfriend (well, that's tomorrow but I know I am going to)

I know tomorrow is New Year's Eve but I am going to be very busy so here is my 2011 wrap up given early by me. I have had such an awesome year and I have nothing but high hopes for 2012.. unless the world will actually end and we all die, but I don't believe that. Haha, well anyways, see you all in 2012!

Here's to the past

I've made mistakes
My mind flows with what I should have said
what I should have done
what I shouldn't of bothered with

My past hurts
Demons dwell within me that won't completely let go of
the pain
the heartbreak
the sadness
the tears
the anger
the dread of the shards of my jaded past

Sometimes I just want give in
give in to the loneliness
give into the sorrow
give into the madness
give into the darkness 

Sometimes I want to give up
give up hope
give up love
give up happiness
give up trying
give up life

The past hurts
like a dagger plunging through my heart
like crash landing onto shards of glass

But, I refuse to give in
I refuse to give up
I refuse to let go
I refuse to surrender

I will fight until the day I die
As much as the past hurts, I will not surrender to the darkness
Because even in the thickest darkness
there will always be a light at the end
It may be hard to find at times
but it is there
even in the darkest places

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I've been thinking a lot about the past. Sure, there is a lot of pain but I refuse to give up because no matter what, I know everything will be okay.

2011 is coming to an end..

Hey guys, sorry I haven't been posting much, things have been really crazy! I will continue with the 30 day song challenge as soon as I can, I promise.

Anyways, 2011 is coming to an end.. I honestly can't believe it! I have been to amazing concerts, met some wonderful people, reconnected with old friends, and found out what love truly is like. This year has been the best year ever for me. 2011 was a time for change.. a time for me to start over and although the past sometimes comes back to haunt me, I have found out that without all the crap that has happened in my life, I wouldn't be as happy and as strong as I was before. I am just so happy and everything is going perfectly. I can already tell I have high hopes for 2012 because I get to spend it with the people who are always by my side no matter what. I will miss 2011 because of all the amazing things I have experienced, however, 2012 is going to be amazing, I can feel it.

I hope you guys are having a happy holiday, whatever you guys celebrate and I wish you all good luck for the new year coming up. I love you all so much and thank you for the support!
~Savanna

30 day song challenge: day 10

Hey guys, I am back with day 10 of the 30 day song challenge! this one was supposed to be for today but I had to make due with posting day 9 on here today because I really did not want to miss it. Anyways, here is my song choice for day 10: a song that makes me fall asleep and  feel relaxed!

Day 10: A song that makes me fall asleep and feel relaxed
Although I listen to mostly metal and rock, I really love slow and peaceful songs as well. People don't really expect me to listen to this stuff because I don't seem like the type of girl who listens to gentle music since I am crazy and because of the way I dress but this song is from a band that I know you guys know I am in love with!  The song is Good Enough by.. you guessed it... Evanescence! This song really calms me down no matter how stressed out I am. The song is very beautiful and Amy Lee's voice is to die for! I really love how gentle this song is with the soothing music along with Amy Lee's voice and the lyrics are also beautiful too. This is overall a beautiful song by a wonderful band that is very close to my heart.

Man, this song is just so relaxing and did I mention it's beautiful? Haha anyways, that's all for day 10, stay tuned for day 11: A song from my favorite band.. hmm I bet you guys can take a lucky guess who my favorite band is lol

30 day song challenge: day 9

Hey guys, sorry I haven't been as up to date on my blog as I planned to be.. I had a really busy weekend so it was tough for me to fit in updating the 30 day song challenge. Anyways, here is day 9: a song I can dance to.

Day 9: A song that I can dance to
I can dance to almost any song with a beat but when I hear this song, I really have to dance along to it. The song is What's This from Nightmare Before Christmas and whenever I hear it, I instantly break into song and just completely spaz out to it. Once, this song played while my boyfriend and I were at the disney store and I just started dancing all over the back part of the store and moving my lips to the words as I spazzed out. I ended up making my boyfriend's day because of my spazzy ourburst  but I was surprised that no one else was staring at me running around the back of the store spazzing, acting the words to the song, picking up random stuffed animals, and just overall being goofy... haha good times. I personally am in love with this movie, along with other movies by Tim Burton and I was so amazed that this song came on as soon as I entered the disney store! Also, since Christmas is coming around the corner, I decided to post this to be festive.

Haha, well that's it for day 9! I hope you guys have a wonderful day and an amazing holiday whichever holiday you celebrate. Stay tuned for day 10: A song that makes me fall asleep and feel relaxed!